I haven't loved mermaids "since I was little", but then again, I'm landlocked... not a lot of mention of mermaids when fields and farms are the only things around. I do feel called by something about them, though. I'm less sure about the reasons why as time continues, but I know they have taught me important lessons about happiness and spirituality. I have indefinitely put shifiting on hiatus, but sometimes it's there, in the back of my mind, making me appreciate the moon and the water and certain flavors on a deeper level. Sometimes I feel like maybe I'm giving up because it's impossible, sometimes I feel like I'm letting myself down, but I have to allot my time carefully right now, and this just doesn't make the cut. Keep trying if you are fresh. I'd like to see somebody succeed. I have half my mind saying it will never work, but the other half says to study hard, make enough money to get a house by the water, and believe and try until I'm old and can't swim anymore. 

I will talk with you about anything for knowledge's sake, no query or question is stupid! 

Request and I will friend you- I certainly don't bite